When Life Gives You Lemons, Make More Than Just Lemonade

I fcking love HELP World Mental Health Day! -- wish I can have a car bumper sticker saying that in bold red letters.

Aside from the mental awareness we're carrying out, the good cause and what not, I really love hanging out with the people who constitute it. Being an introvert (I've never really realised I was one until I stepped foot into University), it finally hit me hard that it is pretty easy to make friends.

Step 1: Stop being shy and start approaching people. Stop expecting people to come approach you instead. 

Step 2: Just open your mouth and start talking some random shit. If you're lucky, people will respond to you. If not move on and find other victims.

But I'm lucky enough to find that one friend I can always rely on eventhough it means being in her shadows sometimes. But it also means being able to share the fun she's having XD

Note to self: Try to be yourself but at the same time, be more comical and get rid of whatever insecurities. "Sometimes I wish insecurity is a non-existent"-- I tweeted that yesterday :D

"Life teaches you so much when you grab the opportunities presented to you"-- aside from getting a more in depth knowledge on addiction, World Mental Health Day has taught me so much more. Brought along so much exposure. Gave me the opportunity to try new things, things I wanted to do but never really thought was possible. 

The people there are genuinely kind, so warm, funny and witty. It was an overwhelming feeling to be accepted and be apart of such a big family. They're so passionate-- they can go on with sleepless nights but still manage to find time to have fun. It's so intriguing and interesting to see their burning flame-- why do they do it? What are their reasons? I feel so inspired, I've decided I'll give it my all also to contribute as much as possible before we end everything in October. 

I'm ranting all these because I'm still having the Penang fever. Had the time of my life! I wish I could hug and hold on to everyone for a longer period of time but the new semester has to kick in (awww dang!). 

[Awesome team of flash-mobbers in Penang]

I'll write a full cover up story on my experience in HELP WMHD when everything is over in October. Just less than 2 more months to go-- let's make the best out of it! 

Murder mode: ON

The good news is my grandad is recovering well now. The bad news is he's getting picky about his food and more easily irritated.

I'm not feeling very well myself. Physically, I'm healthy. But mentally, I'm just drained out.

How many times do I have to listen to people tell me their problems? Don't get me wrong. I love listening to people, if it means getting some load off their shoulder. But it's another thing when I listen but feel so helpless. Then the feeling of helplessness will turn into annoyance and I will immediately get into "murder mode". "Murder mode" is like the game Fruit Ninja, but instead of slicing fruits, I want to slice people's faces.

I don't know if this is the feeling of helplessness or it's the crazy hormones or BOTH.

I just got off the phone after listening to my friend cry. She cried out her frustration, anger and annoyance and all I could do was say "Calm down". I don't know if I should slap myself for not being able to make her feel better or slap that person who got her in that state.

I don't know.

So many things are happening in such a short span of time. I don't know how I somehow managed to get myself spiraled up in their web of mess.

I just don't know.