Come Back...Be Here

I just watched the above video and I have this deep sinking feeling in my gut.

I feel like I am going to throw up.

There's one part in the video where MingH said :

"You think you're alone in this world. But you're not. These people are alone"

And that just made me crumble.

It's true

Even when we feel that no one cares about us/ nobody understands us, we're still not alone.

We can always fall back on family or friends.

We can go back to the comfort of our own home

But what do these people have?

Undoubtedly, they did not ask to have leprosy

Who asks to be sick?

And of course they have a roof over their head, supply of food and friends to accompany them,

But is it the same?

Is it the same when all that they're doing is anticipating for family members to take them home?

Is it the same when they're simply grateful cos other people are there to accompany them?

It breaks my heart

This coming Tuesday, I am going to an orphanage

I think that will probably hurt more than this

This is definitely an eye opener

Never to take things for granted

Scrape off that ego/ shyness of your shoulder

Appreciate friends and family
Tell them you love them before it's too late

This suddenly reminds me of Tabitha

Video Project

 I recently had to do a video project for my Mass Communication class

Yea, I'm doing Psychology, why the heck am I in a MC class? 

Trust me, I ask myself that every time I'm in class

So we had to submit a video onto YouTube.

I want you to watch the video below and let me know what you think in the comment below, please.

We shot this using my digital camera so don't mind the video quality

I edited the video, put in the songs and subtitles (although part of it ran when I uploaded onto YouTube)

Let me know if you understood the video

If you felt the storyline was weak

If the video was really boring to you

If the songs were awesome

Haha

Which part of the video did you like

(Was it when I appeared >.<)

Which part did you not like? 

Constructive criticism is much appreciated!

Thank you in advance.

Please comment.

Love you! <3

PS: Did you notice the "boss" skipping at 0.41-0.42?
PSS : Did you notice Putri scratching her head at 4.55 when she walked away?
LOLs

Off To Penang

Yup, this is another late post.

Recently, I had the chance to visit Penang with my uncle, aunt, aunt's sister, aunt's sister's daughter and aunt's sister's maid. Haha. So that's 5 adults and 1 kid in the car. 

I haven't been to Penang in so long! The food in Penang is to die for. 

First thing we did when we entered Penang Island was to get to Pulau Tikus. We had the famous char kuey tiow and Penang Asam Laksa. Yummy. 

Food makes me really happy :D :D :D

Then we headed to buy some Penang tau sa pia. I don't know what it's called in English but it looks a little something like this. 

Damn cute, right? XD

Checked into the Hotel afterwards to change into some swimwear. I didn't bring any cos I thought we were going skinny dipping. O.O

The happy kid

And off to the beach we went! We headed to Batu Feringhi (how do you spell it? T.T) No pictures for this cos I was busy building my failed sand castles and playing in the not so clean sea. But fun time, indeed.

Later, my uncle and aunt had this whacked out idea of going to Hard Rock Cafe so that the little girl (not me) can play the slides there. 

FYI, only guests can play/ swim in the swimming pool area cos you're supposed to wear some hand tag. Canggih siot the place. The little girl just went in and played like a boss with her giant float and without the hand tag. Soon after, I joined her :D

I feel like a whale

Anyway, I had my first cocktail. The Long Island Tea. 

I swear, the drink is like never ending. I sip and sip and sip some more but it's still there. And I'm proud to say that I got drunk over a freakin' cocktail. Drunk til' the verge of throwing up. I think I might have sipped too much cos it was getting frustrating. Ya, bad idea. Don't drink alcohol too fast. The aftermath comes to you at a faster pace.

Regardless, I went back to the hotel to rest.

Next day, it was time to go back. But my uncle/ aunt wanted to try some durian. My uncle initially wanted to bring us to try the "Udang Merah " durian. The flesh is supposedly red. 

Something like this I suppose. We didn't get the chance to try it cos it wasn't the season yet. We were there a week too early

:(

So we had ourselves some old-fashioned yellow flesh durian instead

Ya, that one durian cost my uncle RM 68. Crazaayyy @.@

The shop owner said this was a good grade durian. I honestly can't tell the difference because, well let's face it, durian is durian. It's either sweet or bitter. Period.

Though it was just a short trip. And an impromptu one also, but it was fun. Any time or day with the family is fun

:)

Did I tell you, I feel really blessed?

Really blessed.

I Gave Away My Blood. So Can YOU!

I can't remember if I wrote on this blog or my WordPress blog about having to cross out "Donating Blood" on my bucket list. Cos I finally did it! This post is a little too late but hey, better late than never!

I remembered being really excited that there was a Blood Donation campaign in University. Been wanting to donate blood for the past few months, now I'm relieved that I can finally do it. I wanted to donate blood while in Form 6 but I was a kg below the required weight. With that said, I'm now over the required weight.

Man, I feel fat 

T.T

So first I had to fill up some form and yada yada. Then I waited for my turn so that the nurse can check my weight, blood type, pressure and whether I have enough haemoglobin.

Waiting for my turn

                        It felt like a small wave of electricity was passing through my vein when she pricked my finger

Kepo at work. Haha.

Then after everything is clear, I had to go for "counselling" session. Haha. Not much of counselling, the lady just asked if I understood the part about my "sex" life and whether I'm having my menstruation

Pfft. Sex life. What sex life?

Oh and it says in the form that homosexuals cannot donate blood. Correct me if I'm wrong. I thought I read something like that. But...why?

 Then it's more registration work to be done. And it's show time! I didn't dare look when the nurse poked the needle into my arm. It was kinda huge when I saw the needle at my friend's arm :/

But after a while, I was chill. My blood flew pretty quickly and the blood was thick red. WOW.

Finally done with it. My bag of fresh O+ blood. Yes, I'm a universal donor. Come ask me for blood in the future :)

After this was the not so fun part. I felt kinda giddy hence the dead-fish look. Had to rest for about 10 minutes before the nurse allowed me to get up. I saw a girl fainted right after she finished donating her blood. Oh-mai-gawd! Her face was so pale :O :O :O

Finally got up and had the strength for another picture. 

Finally a donor!

I honestly felt really proud of myself. Let's hope my blood can save someone's life

Loving Your Smile

The title kinda says it all

Smile because you're beautiful

:D

At satay celup in Ong Kim Wee

At Pak Putra

In grandma's house

At Uncle's place in Sentul

Grandma's house

Switzerland

Shanghai

On the way to KL

Rachel's house

My familayy <3 <3 <3

Blessed

I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOWWWW! >.<

I just wanna hug everyone. /HUGGSSS

Free hugs, anyone?

Picture from Google

I've just completed my assignment which is not due tomorrow but the tutor wants to have a look at the draft anyways. I've been so stressed out and distracted lately. Especially with Twitter and Facebook, even though there's nothing interesting going on. Haha. Actually I'm sort of "stalking" someone and I think I might have scared him away on Twitter :/ But I just wanna be friends :( Oh wells.

About the assignment. I've honestly given my best despite the procrastination so I hope it turns out well. I've never known how badly assignments can contribute to my grades. Now that I know, I'm not about to screw it especially when I know I can score in this. 

God works wonders, doesn't He? :D

I was about to give up doing my assignment. I know you're thinking, "Assignments. Pffft. A piece of cake." But seriously. I was stuck at one point and really didn't know how to go about with it. I've downloaded about 20 journals but most of them I found out later were kinda irrelevant. I even gave up reading the journals cos they were so long winded =.=
 I was about to give up when I remembered an inspirational quote which says,

 "God will not give you what you cannot handle"

 And so I held on to it. I prayed for God to give me the strength to carry on and I know if I try my best, He would guide me through.

Time was also a factor. I'm not about to show papers filled with crap to the tutor tomorrow.  That would be idiotic

I'm not trying to sound intimidating or in any way trying to creep you off. But facing these circumstances I can only count on God, although I'm not all that sure of my religion. But I know that there's a God and believing in God makes things a lot easier. 

So thank you, God. You are amazing in every way.

<3

I've been listening to U-Kiss 0330 although I know nothing of what they are singing. But the music is AWE-SAAAMMM! When I say I've been listening, I've had it on replay for more than 10 times. I'm still not sick of it. :/

First time putting up a Korean video. Ahha!

And no, I'm still not into K-pop or whatever. But guys who can dance are really hot.

Things are finally getting in place. I can feel it. I know I can do well in this mid-term if I give it my all again. 

:D

I have a sudden craving for satay panggang. Pork satay. I WANTTT

Random #6

Today has been really uneventful.

And the Internet is rather slow. Okay let's look on the good side. At least I am still able to go online :D

I have this mid-term paper coming up on 24th October and an assignment which is due the same date. I feel really really stressed out right now. There's not much information which can be found online and those which I found are not credible. OMG. When did coursework become so tough? When? WHEN??

And I don't know what to study for mid-term. Actually I know but... everything is in a mad rush. T.T

I wanted to register for MQA this week. Registration opens on 15th October at some ungodly hour. I went to the Registry at 9.30 am and the quota was filled up! What kind of nonsense is this? Isn't office hour at 9 am? Or 9.30 am? =.=

Bodoh.

So now I might have to take Business elective and do Marketing. I don't know what I am getting myself into, seriously. I am scared of taking Business cos I might be alone and that means making new friends and that is tough, wei! When did making new friends become so tough? When? WHEN?

But I am glad that I am able to make more Malaysian friends. Hooray! That means being able to rojak-fy my English :D

I need to get out of my comfort zone, asap.

Good news is my uncle is bringing me to buy my new camera this weekend. My posts have been pretty picture-less lately. Will take new photos with le new camera. Can't wait!

It's All About Respect

So I recently wrote about Amanda Todd in my WordPress blog. If you don't know who she is, search her up or watch her video on YouTube. 

I don't wanna repeat what I wrote. So if you want, you can read the post on the WordPress blog.

Today, I learned about interview skills and writing resume in Mass Communication class.

The guest lecturer emphasized on respect because how you act in your everyday life will somehow reflect in your interview.

She said, "No matter what position you're applying for or just whatever you do, respect everyone."

Then she moved on to say,

"How many of you took the public transport to class today? Before you left, did you say thank you to the driver?"

"How many of you thanked your mother today?"

"How many of you say thank you when you get your food served to you in a restaurant/ food stall?"

Well, there was a handful of people who did raise their hands.

It was sad to say I only did 1 out of the 3 of what she said

:/

I wanted to say thank you to the bus driver when leaving the bus this morning but I hesitated.

Why did I hesitate?

Hmmm...

Anyway, going back to Amanda Todd, she didn't respect herself enough that it came to a point where she would willingly send a nude picture of herself

But others did not respect her by trashing her unnecessarily online.

Again, I emphasize.

What she did with her life does not interfere with the lives of these bullies.

So, I see no reason for people to bash her for something she chose to do.

I digress a little

I recently went to Penang and donated blood!

Pictures will be up later

Now it's assignment time and study for mid-term

T.T

Thank You, God.

Waking up every morning thanking God for another day. 

There is so much to be thankful for but where do I begin?

Nevertheless, to compensate that, the new me vows to be 

More charitable

More sociable

More friendly

So starting tomorrow, I will smile to at least 5 people, every single day

Sounds easy?

...

It really isn't

T.T

:) :) :) :) :)

Because smiling is just so contagious

Speaking of being more charitable, there will be a blood donation at Wisma Help this Friday
So excited!
Hopefully this time I can finally give away my O+ blood to...well, everyone.
:D
Here's to crossing out "Blood Donation" off le bucket list.

Friend or Foe?

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met

-Taylor Swift ; Red

I just met someone recently. I guess we had a nice chat. Yea, you can say that. Was looking forward to today but it didn't go as expected, at all.

I guess I have you to thank for dampening the start of my day.

How did you suddenly become so cold?

Am I so small that it's easy to ignore me?

Would offering a smile hurt your face? Or put a dent on your ego?

I don't know. You're really something, aren't you?

Been hooked to this song

Psychology Jokes

Here's some jokes my senior posted on Facebook

Welcome to the Psychiatric Hotline.
If you are obsessive-compulsive, please press 1 repeatedly.
If you are co-dependent, please ask someone to press 2.
If you have multiple personalities, please press 3, 4, 5, and 6.
If you are paranoid-delusional, we know who you are and what you want. Just stay on the line so we can trace the call.
If you are schizophrenic, listen carefully and a little voice will tell you which number to press.
If you are depressed, it doesn't matter which number you press. No one will answer.
If you are delusional and occasionally hallucinate, please be aware that the thing you are holding on the side of your head is alive and about to bite off your ear.

 " I used to be indecisive. Now I'm not sure."

 "Once I had multiple personalities, but now we are feeling well."

 "Doctor, doctor, I've only got 59 seconds to live.
Wait a minute please."

And yes, it's 3 am and I'm still not asleep. 
No mood to attend class later
T.T

I Do Not Have Enough Creative Juice To Think Of A Title

Do you actually read the title before reading the content?
Curious to find out.

So my cousin asked me to update my blog more often (yes, you know who you are because you happen to be the only cousin whom I chat with. I have such a sad life and you still owe me good food in KL.)

2 thumbs up for f-o-o-d

I currently don't have much to blog about. Like I said uni has deem to be pretty boring for me.

I have no boyfriend so no juice to squeeze out from me.

I kinda look up to this guy who happens to be quite well known on YouTube but it's unlikely he knows who I am unless I go up to him and introduce myself. But I don't see him around anymore so that's not gonna happen anytime soon. Was thinking of going up to his brother instead and try to make friends since he is the same age as me and will be in Help soon. We'll see how. I'm desperate for new friends. Like desperate with a humongous D.

I have so much free time since Malaysian studies haven't started. There's so much time but at the same time, there's not enough time. Woah that's a lot of repetition. Ya, it's true. I don't know what I waste my ample free time on, honestly. I should use that time to make new friends lah. But I don't see anyone whom I can really connect with. Gahh somebody kill meh.

Erm....erm...

I should start driving in KL next year. If I have to continue eating the same food for more than a year, I might have to just kill myself. Imagine I've not had a single pork for a month. A freaking month without digesting pork. That is such a sin in my book. Tskk tskk..

Okay, this is getting a tad bit boring.

I'll be doing community service soon so I'll probably upload pictures then.

It's 2 am and I have class in 6 hours. Blehh

You don't say

In the meantime, go entertain yourself with these videos.
They're quite funny

Images were retrieved from Google and videos from YouTube, duh.

Random #5

I read this excerpt online. 

It's so...

you read for yourself lah

Islam is the official state religion, and a strict version of Shariah law applies to Muslims in two of Malaysia's provinces. Recently an unmarried woman was fined more than $1,000 for sitting too close to a man to whom she was not related.

O.O
What in the world?

School...again.

Let me just point out that doing assignments is a pain in the ass.

It's not even funny what we have to do.

Imagine doing my thesis in third year

o.O

Okay, breathe.

People survived it. 

I can too...

right?

O.O

Anyhow, university life hasn't been really exciting for me.

Maybe I'm not being initiative enough,
not participating in more activities

But in my defence, assignments take up a lot of time

And then sleeping gets in the way.

Sleeping always fights for my time 

Awww..

I really don't wanna graduate 3 years from now and when people ask me,
 "So what have you learn in University? Did you get to meet many new exciting people?"

And my answer will probably be,
"Errr....." *runs away*

I will try my best to participate more and meet more new people

Not that I don't like the company of my new friends

But it just doesn't feel right

Like there's still a missing piece in the puzzle

I haven't found that someone whom I can really be myself with

Especially a Malaysian who can understand my Malaysian lingo

Sometimes having to speak only in English without rojak-fying your words is tough

Who knew?

It's been a month.

I want to meet new people.

Mood switch to being a psychologist : I WILL meet new people.

Oh I just learned about Freud today

Just an introductory to personality

Fell asleep halfway through class

Seriously, 8 am classes are too early lah. Why can't they change to 11 am instead?

T.T

Anyway, Freud..lecturer said Freud's theory mostly based on sex

How having the desire to have sex is considered a "sin"

How enjoying sex is disgusting
What's wrong with you, Freud?
But to his defence, he was brought up during the Victorian era

Lecturer also said if Freud were brought back to life to watch "Sex & the City", he'd probably get multiple heart attacks

LMAO

I Pray

I don't usually pray a lot

The only times I pray will probably be

during Wesak Day

and when I'm helpless and need help from God

That's bad, right?

But to compensate that, I do good everyday

Maybe not everyday

But most of the time

My point is...

I don't really have a valid point

But I wanna pray now

I pray that everything will go smoothly for everyone 

 To friends who are away from me ; I hope you're having the time of your life in University

To my family ; I hope work for you is good and you're making tonnes of money

To my grandparents ; I hope that you'll stay healthy for as long as God will let you. I love you.

To people who have to travel to get to University ; I hope you're safe and guarded

To the lecturers ; I hope you're giving your best being an educator

To that guy I have a crush on ; I hope you'll recognise me and know my name

On Malaysian Ground (OMG)

Just came back from the OMG event at Actors Studio in Lot 10.

Had so much fun, I tell you.

It's like this gathering to showcase Malaysian YouTube artists.

OMG everyone there is damn talented!

Seriously, the best 3 hours show that I've gone through

And best of all, it was free!

There were 5 main YouTube channels there

The Ming Thing

Dan Khoo Productions

Jinnyboy TV

The Grim Film

Germani Productions

And like 50% of the YouTube artists above finished their degree in Help Uni doing Psych

Or is still studying in Help University

Or is gonna enter Help University

Just find that pretty amazing.

Ok enough about that

There's this question that is bugging me in my head

"What can I do when I look myself in the pictures and find myself the least bit attractive?"

It doesn't help also that I am short.

Of Different Emotions

I am so effin' mad right now.

Okay, not really angry mad. More of really irritated. 

Maybe it's PMS. Pre-menstrual syndrome.

Or the shit load of assignments to do. And I don't know how to start.

Or the fact that I tried to book an early flight to Singapore but the fee increased.

Or that the stupid credit card transmission cannot seem to get through.

Or that the INTERNET IS STUPIDLY SLOW.

T.T

I give up.

Positive thoughts.

Positive thoughts.

Positive thoughts.

On a brighter note (wahh change mood so fast ^^), I went for a mini charity concert yesterday in Help Main Block. Paid RM 8 for it. Actually I was cheated cos on the promotional poster it said ticket price is only RM 5.

Who's lying now?

Somehow, they sold out those tickets so the ticket I bought was considered as a late-comer ticket. Like that also can -_- But since it was for charity, so I paid willingly lah. The acts were pretty good. Most of them are/ were Help University students. And most of them sang. But it was a night to let go of stress and just take in the music. There were a few guys who played the guitar/ keyboard and they can sing and they got swag, yo! Nice 3 hours to "cuci mata". 

:)

Reuben Kang was the emcee for the event. In case you don't know who Reuben is, he is quite famous. (in Malaysia at least). He's one half of Jinnyboy TV. If you don't know who Jin is, he's the DJ for Hitz.fm. If you don't know what Hitz.fm is, seriously WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN LIVING?!! 

Ya that dude is Reuben Kang a.k.a the Malaysian version of Psy. 

Have you heard this version of Gangnam Style? I kinda like it. Everyone is catching the Gangnam fever. OMGGG. Even one of my lecturers, who looks like Psy, danced this yesterday. Didn't know he was that sporting. @.@

Left : Reuben, Right: Mr Lecturer

People in Help are really cool.

Reuben is kinda cute also. I tweeted him after the concert and he replied
:)

I read this blog about this Singaporean blogger cos one of my friends mentioned her on Facebook and Twitter. I read about how she met her husband online. She was only 21 then and he flew to Singapore to meet her. He's all the way from the States. Really sweet story. But also kinda scary that she took the chance. I mean for all you know, he can be a rapist or a serial killer right? You cannot trust people you meet online.
But aww.. damn romantic lah her story. 

I was so sappy after reading it. 

Now I hope I'll meet a guy who is as passionate as him. And who would sacrifice everything to be with me.

I would sacrifice some stuff also lah. I'm not that selfish, k?

<3

Although I strongly feel meeting people via the web for the first time is pretty creepy.

:S

Also I feel that she looks so much prettier with her original hair colour. Maybe because I don't really fancy blonde girls. Not that I'm stereotyping them or whatever. I just prefer girls with darker hair colour (?) I think she is beautiful just the way she was, before the surgeries and stuff. People have no right to call her a slut or a prostitute or "plastic" just because she underwent a couple of surgeries.

Who are you to judge, seriously?

I think that was one of the reasons why I was mad also. Because people think its right to call girls names just because they're hiding behind a screen. And like she said, you're no Zac Efron or in my case Ryan Reynolds. You don't have the look or the body and the brain for that matter, so just shut the eff up. No one is passing around judgement about you or calling you ugly. Just shut up and mind your business, assholes.

Happy thoughts.

Happy thoughts.

Happy thoughts.

So damn hot. /faints /dies

But he's married again.

#Emo

:(

Pictures taken from Google

美

This video just made me grin from ear to ear.

The lyrics is so repetitive but it's such a catchy song

Lee Hom in a suit <3

The Loftus Theory

I have to choose 1 out of 6 topics to do my assignments on in PSY 111: Introduction to Psychology part 1

And one of the questions were:

Loftus Theory of False Memories : Is it really possible for someone to remember an event that never really happened at all?

Sounds intriguing?

So I googled it. 

Omg, it's so interesting!

This theory was basically formulated by Elizabeth Loftus, a PhD holder in cognitive psychology.

She believes that you can implant a false memory into the brain of a person.

What she does in short is gather a group of teenagers mostly around the age of 14- 20 and she tells them that they are a part of an experiment to determine if they can remember their childhood memories.

She has a family member of the teenagers to participate in this experiment as well.

What the family member has to do is write down 3 real events which happened during the teenagers' childhood and a false event.

The false event is often about losing the way in the shopping mall at the age of 5 and being found by an elderly person.

The teenagers will have to read and write down these 4 events for 5 consecutive days.

They will be called for an interview to describe the 4 events and rate them on a scale of 1 to 10 on how well they can remember these events.

A week or two later, they will be called back again and the same processes are repeated.

What is so shocking is that most of them say that they can remember the false event pretty vividly and rated it pretty high. Whereas a true event was rated pretty low.

Finally, the teenagers were told that the false event never really occur in their childhood. Most of them found that hard to believe.

Read about it here! Loftus Theory

But it became so disturbing for me when I read about this teenage girl in the States who accused her father of killing and raping her best friend.

In reality, the event didn't happen and it was said that when her former best friend passed away, the teen implanted a false memory because of sadness and hatred towards her father.

Omg just read about the Loftus Theory. 

It's damn interesting.

Makes me wonder now whether whatever happened in Inception can actually happen in real life

:/

Leonardo DiCarpio <3

Of Brain and Teleost Fish

Brain overloaded and densely saturated with facts.

That's what happened this morning during lecture class at 8 am. I slept at 2 am so there wasn't enough oxygen in the brain to keep me wide awake during class. And we were just getting to the most interesting part of Psychology! Introduction to Psychology Part 1, which is basically about the brain in Chapter 1. We need to know the structure of the brain, the different and confusing names, the functions etc. It's like learning Biology all over again! :D

Don't you think the brain is just marvellous? It's just this thing, which is about 1/3 of our whole body, probably smaller but yet it controls EVERYTHING! It determines the emotions you're feeling. The reaction that is supposed to happen. It's so simple yet so complex. Ahh.. simply loving it.

These are the few terms that I can remember during class today. The lecturer is pretty good. 

1. Hippocampus. Imagine a hippopotamus going to campus and getting lost. To avoid getting lost, it needs to remember the way it came in. Hence, the hippocamus is in charge of memory.

2. Cerebellum. In charge of body movement and balance.

3. Temporal lobe. Situated at the side of the brain. In charge of hearing. (Temporal sounds like telinga hence hearing)

Okay that's about a few things I can remember lah.

Anyway, was reading this journal on Brain Sexualization and Plasticity. Sounds interesting?

Found out that there's a type of fish named teleost fish. Below is an excerpt from the journal

Among vertebrates, teleost fish are unique in many respects, but one

of the most intriguing ones is their capacity to change sex during

adulthood. Indeed, while hermaphroditism is quite common in

invertebrates, mainly in worms and snails, or in plants, it is rarely

seen in vertebrates.

In contrast, teleost fishes

are known for exhibiting several forms of natural hermaphroditism. Some

species are synchronous hermaphrodites that have both ovarian and

testicular tissues and form spawning pairs performing cross-fecundation.

Other species undergo genetically programmed sex change

during development.

In protogynous hermaphrodites, animals are

first females before becoming males. In contrast, in the protandrous

hermaphrodites, testicular tissue predominates first but, after a

transition period, the ovarian tissue takes over and the fish behaves

as female.

I think this is the teleost fish

How cool, right?

XD