A Normal Problem, No?

I think someone is mad at me now and I am mad at myself for letting it get to me. Honestly don't think that she has the right to be mad at me when the other person is pretty chill about it. But then again, this might just all be in my head. Although I am quite convinced that my instinct is right. I think I am also getting my period soon. Lol totally irrelevant. But proofs to accompany my totally irrelevant statement. I cannot control my anger during that period of the month, pun intended. Hence the statement above about being mad. And also because I lashed out at the kids yesterday. If I am there any longer and I don't control my anger, I might have to be filed for child abuse. This evening I was about to fall asleep when my phone rang. Ignored it and a few seconds later my house phone rang. Then the dog barked. Was gonna sleep again before my handphone started vibrating again! Slept for what seemed like a short time and the alarm went off. Was beyond frustrated I had to yell into the pillow. Wtf has become of me?! Is this normal? My oestrogen,FSH,LH and progesterone levels are sky-rocketting like angry bulls being provoked. Everything seems to be heightening EXCEPT my height. -.-

A White Lie Won't Hurt, Right?

To answer my own question, a white lie hurts. Anyway, so I recently told a lie to quit my job. Not one of my finest lies, I must say. Need more practice because they say 'Practice Makes Perfect!' ;) I thought I have managed to escape work and just lazed around for a whole month plus before I enter that dangerous city they call Kuala Lumpur where I am forced to inhabit and make friends with complete strangers. :p Ok jokes aside. Ya as I was saying, I thought I got to do that until the Principal said 'You don't want to work for me anymore ah? Come back the 1st week of July lah' I tell you, I was caught off guard so I managed to laugh and said 'You can call me if you need anymore help' WHAT WAS I THINKING?!!!! Must be in my nature to be nice to people. :D Don't get me wrong. I do enjoy working there. By far the BEST job I have. No angry customers or parents. And I get to hit kids who are naughty. That place is heaven I tell you....for about a week. Then the demons get released and before you know it, you are losing your patience, your voice and lastly your insanity! But like I say, I am just nice by nature, so I might consider going back to work for the last 2 weeks of July and that's it! Besides getting extra money won't hurt. :D *starts singing 'it's all about the money, money, moneyyyyy!!!'*

Nervous Breakdown

I am so fat for someone my size and height. I think I'm obese. Need to start running/ jogging again. So, I went to look for a room in KL today. Found one which was kinda pricey. To me, I don't think it is worth it to pay for that kinda price just for the room with a bed, attached bathroom and one miserable table as my study table. Ok there is the kitchen and they'll provide us with an induction cooker. But I cannot cook! Need to put 'Learn to cook, FAST!' on my list also. I will have 5 roommates since the unit I am staying in has 3 bedrooms. OMGSSSSSS! It really is happening! Will I survive in KL? Ok I probably will. But I am not the friendliest or nicest kid to talk to. I feel like I can communicate better with adults. Is that weird? Or what if my roommates only speak Mandarin. Holy shitssss! On the up side is, if I fail to make any new friend, I can always count on Karthik Arun, well sort of. Inhale. Exhale. 'What Doesn't Kill You Only Makes You Stronger!'

Random #3

Okay. So far this is what I've gathered. I may sometime dress like a child or a grany (most of the time like a child), but the way I think is definitely like an adult. I got praised today at work. One of the teachers said I was the BEST substitute teacher they had. That I was tough and did things without being told more than once. :) Just found out that one of the missionaries from my friend's church will be getting married! He's the same age as my brother so he's 24. Wow! Congratulations, Elder Plant! I love weddings. Too bad this is 24 hours away from Malaysia :(

Gone For Too Long

I am not dead yet! ^^ Just wanted to post a few updates. I went on a cruise and came back, safely. Thank God. First time experiencing sea sick. It ain't pretty. But the cruise experience was hell of amazing. Loved the variety of food. And good looking Filipino crew members. I'm gonna marry a Filipino guy if all else fails. Lol. I am still working at a daycare centre. Survived longer than I expected. Was way tougher than I imagined it to be. Kids are kids and all kids are brats. That much I gathered from my experience of working. But at the end of the day, all hate is gone when these little brats give me a hug and a peck on the cheek (well some of them do). However, all great things have to come to an end. With that said, I am left with only 8 more working days. It will be a bittersweet goodbye. The other day, a few Christian people went around my taman to preach. One of the guys saw me and he started talking to me in Malay. I was shocked! I couldn't understand what he said cos he was too 'pelat' and that was when I realised he thought maybe I was a maid. -.- Anyway they were Jehovah Witnesses. And he preached to me about knowledge and wisdom from the Scripture. Passed me a pamphlet to read and inside it read 'Do You Know Who The Creator Is?' Flipped through it and again I was surprised that they included Buddhism in it. But in short it said that Buddhism was a religion that was not proven. And that it's followers based everything on superstitions. Which in short meant that Buddhism has no creator? I was dumbfounded by that alone and chucked the pamphlet away. He even said, 'Hope to speak speak to you again.' Ya, I don't think so. There will be no next time. About 5 minutes ago, my tour guide from Indonesia just called me. What a shocker! Haha nice guy. I'm typing all these using the iPad 2. Not bad but an iPad 2 is definitely not sufficient to replace a laptop/ computer. Still very disappointed with its low quality camera. Blehhh... What happened to all my spacings?!