Food or Thought?

I cannot decide on the mood right now. I have been listening to emo songs but I am not particularly emotional or anything. Just that emo songs are also very soothing, kind of like the one below

Also the voice of the singer is really calm and sexy

Haven't been back home in quite some time. I am dying with having to eat the same food or worse still, not knowing what to cook for dinner. I NEED ME SOME MALACCAN FOOD. Or a car to drive out and hunt for some KL food. When will I be brave enough to drive in KL? T-T

I would do anything to have those food now. The epitome of home sick eventhough home is just a 2-hour journey away.

Been putting a lot of time into WMHD. We recently did a launch and a song mob, which were pretty successful? I assume so. I had to leave halfway during the MOST interesting event for my Quantitative assessment. FML I really suck in timing. I know I have said this countless of times but I am really glad I joined WMHD. I'm most excited for the new places I get to go with these people. I am no longer stuck facing only the four walls in my room. Yay!

Most of the WMHD people are in there. Photo credit to Jo Li

I also realised that my biological clock is crazy again. I can now stay up til 7 am but will wake up really late in the afternoon, usually when I start feeling really hungry. This is bad right? And this semester sees me being so nonchalant about my studies despite nearing deadlines and mid-terms coming. Focus, Kelsey!

I have a lot on my mind right now. Maybe I should just list them down.

1. Figuring out if I should confess to this guy but then questioning why? When did life become so complicated? Haha it probably isn't, I just love exaggerating. But it is nice being around him and knowing more about him. My friend says give it time. I am more comfortable around him now and it brightens my day whenever I see him in University. I'm corny like that, I'm sorry.

2. I feel the need to go for a run. To train for my 10k marathon in a month's time and to just lose some weight and to feel healthy. /I'm fat and unhealthy for my size ERMAIGAWDD O.O

3. To prioritise. Especially in my studies. The goal this time is 3.25. If I can get higher, that would be great. But Social Psychology and Advanced Quantitative might just be the death of me. Need. To. Start. Studying. Soon. Today.

4. Start on group assignments. The assignments this semester are a pain in the butt because we need to get out to do group activity or interview someone. Really not looking forward to it.

5. Get more involved with Re:ed. I haven't attended any classes since the start of the new semester.

6. Find out my purpose in life. Haha. Okay, let me rephrase. Put more thoughts into my future. Set goals I want to achieve by the end of this year. But usually when it comes to goals, then it involves "getting good grades for my current semester", how boring. I need to work on a list a.s.a.p.

Everything is just a clutter in my head right now. 50 shades of cloudiness (Yes, I've been reading 50 Shades of Grey)

I must say I was quite disappointed that my WMHD article didn't appear in the R.AGE section in the Star although they e-mailed and said they would publish my piece. But I'll try again one day.

2013 has been kind to me so far. Turning 21 and getting more exposure, meeting new people and hopefully growing each day have been more than just a blessing. 3 more months til it ends so lets try to accomplish more things!

Overall, I am thankful.

My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark

Have I mentioned that I really wanted to be a musician? Maybe in another life. As of right now, I can't play any musical instrument, not even the guitar although I did try to learn some chords which I have forgotten :B And not to mention how tone deaf I am. Oh God why?

If I have a boyfriend who can sing and play the guitar/ piano for me, that'd be awesome :D

Then maybe next time I can force music lessons on my children. Haha I kid. 

I've been hooked to this song.

My songs know what you did in the daaaarrrkk

So light em' up, up, up, up

I'M ON FIRRREEEEE

The Now And The Then

Wow, it's been ages since I posted anything :B

I've started Semester 2 doing Psychology. Still learning MORE theories and one of my worse subjects, Statistics. Seriously, I thought that wasn't what I signed up for?

Truth be told, nothing really interesting that I can write about

I came across this quote,  "Do one thing everyday that scares you" and I find it pretty meaningful. It's not really easy to keep up with but at least I started somewhere. Since last semester, I found myself being pretty shy, unlike my usual self. I would stutter and have really really low level of confidence during presentations. I also planned on joining a few events but in the end chickened out. But it's all changing now! I made more friends. Even if those who I don't talk to, I at least smile at them. I tend to want to volunteer to speak during presentations. I joined World Mental Health Day but hasn't started on anything. Things are really starting to shape into what I hope university life would be like. I'd hate to leave university not doing anything. So that was overcoming my fear for me, well sort of.

And I donated a bag of blood! There's another blood donation campaign in April. How many months after I last donated my blood can I do it again? Also, I've been thinking of signing up as an organ donor once I officially turn 21. But I'd probably have to let my parents know first.

I also learned to cook better. At least to me it seems better, haha. I just recently learned to cook chicken rice and mee hun kueh because I felt like eating them and I can't find them at my area here. Never in my life did I think cooking can be this fun :D Seriously, TRY IT.

Studies been okay. Assignments piling up but they're manageable I suppose. Hopefully I'll score better in Semester 2 compared to Semester 1. The aim for this sem: 3.25

Fighting!

I've also developed a HUGE crush on Nichkhun from 2PM <3

I came across this song while watching Vampire Diaries. It's so romantic :) I want to dance to this with my future husband. WHERE IS MY BOYFIE/ HUSBAND? I demand you make yourself visible NAAWWWW

I'm also going to watch U-Kiss perform LIVE next week! Kevin and Eli YAAAAAAAAAAA

Come Back...Be Here

I just watched the above video and I have this deep sinking feeling in my gut.

I feel like I am going to throw up.

There's one part in the video where MingH said :

"You think you're alone in this world. But you're not. These people are alone"

And that just made me crumble.

It's true

Even when we feel that no one cares about us/ nobody understands us, we're still not alone.

We can always fall back on family or friends.

We can go back to the comfort of our own home

But what do these people have?

Undoubtedly, they did not ask to have leprosy

Who asks to be sick?

And of course they have a roof over their head, supply of food and friends to accompany them,

But is it the same?

Is it the same when all that they're doing is anticipating for family members to take them home?

Is it the same when they're simply grateful cos other people are there to accompany them?

It breaks my heart

This coming Tuesday, I am going to an orphanage

I think that will probably hurt more than this

This is definitely an eye opener

Never to take things for granted

Scrape off that ego/ shyness of your shoulder

Appreciate friends and family
Tell them you love them before it's too late

This suddenly reminds me of Tabitha

Video Project

 I recently had to do a video project for my Mass Communication class

Yea, I'm doing Psychology, why the heck am I in a MC class? 

Trust me, I ask myself that every time I'm in class

So we had to submit a video onto YouTube.

I want you to watch the video below and let me know what you think in the comment below, please.

We shot this using my digital camera so don't mind the video quality

I edited the video, put in the songs and subtitles (although part of it ran when I uploaded onto YouTube)

Let me know if you understood the video

If you felt the storyline was weak

If the video was really boring to you

If the songs were awesome

Haha

Which part of the video did you like

(Was it when I appeared >.<)

Which part did you not like? 

Constructive criticism is much appreciated!

Thank you in advance.

Please comment.

Love you! <3

PS: Did you notice the "boss" skipping at 0.41-0.42?
PSS : Did you notice Putri scratching her head at 4.55 when she walked away?
LOLs

Blessed

I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOWWWW! >.<

I just wanna hug everyone. /HUGGSSS

Free hugs, anyone?

Picture from Google

I've just completed my assignment which is not due tomorrow but the tutor wants to have a look at the draft anyways. I've been so stressed out and distracted lately. Especially with Twitter and Facebook, even though there's nothing interesting going on. Haha. Actually I'm sort of "stalking" someone and I think I might have scared him away on Twitter :/ But I just wanna be friends :( Oh wells.

About the assignment. I've honestly given my best despite the procrastination so I hope it turns out well. I've never known how badly assignments can contribute to my grades. Now that I know, I'm not about to screw it especially when I know I can score in this. 

God works wonders, doesn't He? :D

I was about to give up doing my assignment. I know you're thinking, "Assignments. Pffft. A piece of cake." But seriously. I was stuck at one point and really didn't know how to go about with it. I've downloaded about 20 journals but most of them I found out later were kinda irrelevant. I even gave up reading the journals cos they were so long winded =.=
 I was about to give up when I remembered an inspirational quote which says,

 "God will not give you what you cannot handle"

 And so I held on to it. I prayed for God to give me the strength to carry on and I know if I try my best, He would guide me through.

Time was also a factor. I'm not about to show papers filled with crap to the tutor tomorrow.  That would be idiotic

I'm not trying to sound intimidating or in any way trying to creep you off. But facing these circumstances I can only count on God, although I'm not all that sure of my religion. But I know that there's a God and believing in God makes things a lot easier. 

So thank you, God. You are amazing in every way.

<3

I've been listening to U-Kiss 0330 although I know nothing of what they are singing. But the music is AWE-SAAAMMM! When I say I've been listening, I've had it on replay for more than 10 times. I'm still not sick of it. :/

First time putting up a Korean video. Ahha!

And no, I'm still not into K-pop or whatever. But guys who can dance are really hot.

Things are finally getting in place. I can feel it. I know I can do well in this mid-term if I give it my all again. 

:D

I have a sudden craving for satay panggang. Pork satay. I WANTTT

Friend or Foe?

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met

-Taylor Swift ; Red

I just met someone recently. I guess we had a nice chat. Yea, you can say that. Was looking forward to today but it didn't go as expected, at all.

I guess I have you to thank for dampening the start of my day.

How did you suddenly become so cold?

Am I so small that it's easy to ignore me?

Would offering a smile hurt your face? Or put a dent on your ego?

I don't know. You're really something, aren't you?

Been hooked to this song

I Do Not Have Enough Creative Juice To Think Of A Title

Do you actually read the title before reading the content?
Curious to find out.

So my cousin asked me to update my blog more often (yes, you know who you are because you happen to be the only cousin whom I chat with. I have such a sad life and you still owe me good food in KL.)

2 thumbs up for f-o-o-d

I currently don't have much to blog about. Like I said uni has deem to be pretty boring for me.

I have no boyfriend so no juice to squeeze out from me.

I kinda look up to this guy who happens to be quite well known on YouTube but it's unlikely he knows who I am unless I go up to him and introduce myself. But I don't see him around anymore so that's not gonna happen anytime soon. Was thinking of going up to his brother instead and try to make friends since he is the same age as me and will be in Help soon. We'll see how. I'm desperate for new friends. Like desperate with a humongous D.

I have so much free time since Malaysian studies haven't started. There's so much time but at the same time, there's not enough time. Woah that's a lot of repetition. Ya, it's true. I don't know what I waste my ample free time on, honestly. I should use that time to make new friends lah. But I don't see anyone whom I can really connect with. Gahh somebody kill meh.

Erm....erm...

I should start driving in KL next year. If I have to continue eating the same food for more than a year, I might have to just kill myself. Imagine I've not had a single pork for a month. A freaking month without digesting pork. That is such a sin in my book. Tskk tskk..

Okay, this is getting a tad bit boring.

I'll be doing community service soon so I'll probably upload pictures then.

It's 2 am and I have class in 6 hours. Blehh

You don't say

In the meantime, go entertain yourself with these videos.
They're quite funny

Images were retrieved from Google and videos from YouTube, duh.

On Malaysian Ground (OMG)

Just came back from the OMG event at Actors Studio in Lot 10.

Had so much fun, I tell you.

It's like this gathering to showcase Malaysian YouTube artists.

OMG everyone there is damn talented!

Seriously, the best 3 hours show that I've gone through

And best of all, it was free!

There were 5 main YouTube channels there

The Ming Thing

Dan Khoo Productions

Jinnyboy TV

The Grim Film

Germani Productions

And like 50% of the YouTube artists above finished their degree in Help Uni doing Psych

Or is still studying in Help University

Or is gonna enter Help University

Just find that pretty amazing.

Ok enough about that

There's this question that is bugging me in my head

"What can I do when I look myself in the pictures and find myself the least bit attractive?"

It doesn't help also that I am short.