Not A Racist Post, Just Sayin'

Today I changed the route where I take my dog for his usual walk

Because I had to take some stuff from my grandparents

So I was walking towards the other end,

Near the Kampung where, well Kampung people live

And not to forget the Rempits

How can we forget about the uneducated Rempits?

My, my..

This isn't the first time

They tried to get exceptionally close to me while riding their stupid bikes

Tried whistling and calling me "Ah Moi"

And then snickering like they did something intelligent

Ah Moi??
Are you fcking kidding me?!

Again, my, my..

How I have to live with these kind of people so close to me is really painful

How I have to deal with them for a year and a half in Form 6 is torturous

How they can get away with things while being so uneducated, rude and just plain loser-ish is beyond me

And they wonder why our education system is degrading

Why don't we start with educating these monkeys to stop being such hooligans and start acting more like human beings?

Just saying.

F*cking Pissed Off

I am actually very angry right now.

Okay.

Maybe not angry.

Just really unsatisfied.

For those out there whom I may not have updated,

I have started working.

Yes, you heard me right.

But I only have to work for 4 days.

Not a week.

But a month.

4 days a MONTH.

But after this month, I am NEVER going back doing the same job.

I'll tell you why.

I work in a place called Fuji Xerox, in Melaka Raya.

All I have to do is call clients and ask for their meter readings.

Seems pretty easy?

Ya that's what I thought.

But I forgot that humans with lack of manners still exist.

Humans with ego.

And humans with temper.

I can understand when people get annoyed when asked for their meter readings.

They have to probably drag their lazy ass off the chair,

Get to the photostat machine,

Press a few buttons (only 3 simple steps actually)

And then read out the readings to me.

I get that.

And I also get it when they say 'please hold on',

they mean to LITERALLY hold on.

I don't get annoyed by that.

So why should they?

But what I cannot tolerate is people with temper and has no manners.

The following happened to me this morning.

Me : Selamat pagi. Boleh saya cakap dengan Encik *asshole*?

Asshole : Ya. Saya.

Me : Hi. Saya dari Fuji Xerox. Boleh saya dapatkan bacaan meter encik?

Asshole : Eh u semalam kan dah janji nak call back 30 minit kemudian. Habis, u ingat saya tak de kerja lain ke? Hari-hari duk kat mesin jaga mesin?

Just to clear things off, I did call him back as promised 30 minutes later.

But the line was engaged (asshole)

And it was also the time I finished work.

I should have told him that.

But I was too shocked that I was being told off.

For something that I didn't even do wrong.

Gahhhh..

And I know not to mess with a man filled with fury.

He probably had a bad day.

But is that really a reason to put it out on the next person you have a phone conversation with?

That is not a pass for him to be rude and egoistic.

Right???

I'm so fckin mad.

God, please give me a clarity of mind.

And clients with manners for my last day of work.

#pray

Just Because You're A Pain In The Butt

What the hell was that?!

Why are you screwing with my brain at times like this?

U b****

I'll never get over the fear of Maths.

Not now

Not ever.

Thanks a lot, you JERK

To Rise or Fall?

When I'm really lazy to get out of bed and so tempted to press the "snooze" button, I remind myself that..

"If sleeping the extra hour gives me the extra knowledge, I'd be freakin' Einstein by now"

But the sad reality is..
It does not.
And I'm still freakin' Kelsey Wee (the irony T.T)

 

Nope, that's definitely NOT me

Freakin' Kelsey Wee

We had a really long and draggy assembly this morning (Kudos to those "friends" who skipped without informing). 2 hours of forced assembly. That's a hundred and twenty minutes, three times longer than the usual assembly. Doesn't help that all announcements were in Bahasa. I tried to shut down what was really unimportant. After a hundred and twenty minutes, my ears got tired and my eyelids were drooping.

Anyhow, the Principal awarded those who obtained CGPA 3.5 and above a certificate and a silver badge. If I'm being really frank (which I am), I was kinda torn that I wasn't one out of the 30+ who went up to receive the cert and silver badge.

Sitting at the back of the hall, cheering for friends who achieved what they worked hard for, I felt a little bit disappointed for not working hard enough.

For a whole year and a half, I won't say that I have improved a lot. Don't get me wrong. I did improve somehow, but just minimal, not to the extent that I wanted to.

So I challenged myself to at least try my best for STPM which is barely 2 weeks away. I owe that much to myself and to my parents. To my mom especially, who put such high hopes on me. And I can't help but feeling so useless for letting her down, over and over again.

Teachers kept telling us, "Your exam is just a month away. There still is room for improvement'

I tell myself, "One month will see improvement from me"

Now is just a matter of succeeding or failing again.

I either make it or break it

WHICH WILL  IT BE?

Disappointed, yet again.

When will it end?

When will I stop feeling this way?

I was dumb for thinking there was a spark of hope.

Stupid for wanting a shot.

Foolish for feeling all giggly around you.
Naive for thinking that you were different.

What is it about her that draws so many bees?

The sweet honey that she produces?

Or the fact that she is the Queen Bee, the almighty one?

I assumed you were smart enough to see pass all that.

Assumed you had eyes to see further than that.

Assumed your heart digs deeper that just a facade.

Again, I assumed you were different.

They tried to tell me to never assume.

It makes an ass out of you and me.

That part probably is true.

It definitely made an ass out of me.

I'm done with liking you.

Over the crush I once kept so long.

It's the end of you.

Yet, the beginning of a heartbreak.