Food or Thought?

I cannot decide on the mood right now. I have been listening to emo songs but I am not particularly emotional or anything. Just that emo songs are also very soothing, kind of like the one below

Also the voice of the singer is really calm and sexy

Haven't been back home in quite some time. I am dying with having to eat the same food or worse still, not knowing what to cook for dinner. I NEED ME SOME MALACCAN FOOD. Or a car to drive out and hunt for some KL food. When will I be brave enough to drive in KL? T-T

I would do anything to have those food now. The epitome of home sick eventhough home is just a 2-hour journey away.

Been putting a lot of time into WMHD. We recently did a launch and a song mob, which were pretty successful? I assume so. I had to leave halfway during the MOST interesting event for my Quantitative assessment. FML I really suck in timing. I know I have said this countless of times but I am really glad I joined WMHD. I'm most excited for the new places I get to go with these people. I am no longer stuck facing only the four walls in my room. Yay!

Most of the WMHD people are in there. Photo credit to Jo Li

I also realised that my biological clock is crazy again. I can now stay up til 7 am but will wake up really late in the afternoon, usually when I start feeling really hungry. This is bad right? And this semester sees me being so nonchalant about my studies despite nearing deadlines and mid-terms coming. Focus, Kelsey!

I have a lot on my mind right now. Maybe I should just list them down.

1. Figuring out if I should confess to this guy but then questioning why? When did life become so complicated? Haha it probably isn't, I just love exaggerating. But it is nice being around him and knowing more about him. My friend says give it time. I am more comfortable around him now and it brightens my day whenever I see him in University. I'm corny like that, I'm sorry.

2. I feel the need to go for a run. To train for my 10k marathon in a month's time and to just lose some weight and to feel healthy. /I'm fat and unhealthy for my size ERMAIGAWDD O.O

3. To prioritise. Especially in my studies. The goal this time is 3.25. If I can get higher, that would be great. But Social Psychology and Advanced Quantitative might just be the death of me. Need. To. Start. Studying. Soon. Today.

4. Start on group assignments. The assignments this semester are a pain in the butt because we need to get out to do group activity or interview someone. Really not looking forward to it.

5. Get more involved with Re:ed. I haven't attended any classes since the start of the new semester.

6. Find out my purpose in life. Haha. Okay, let me rephrase. Put more thoughts into my future. Set goals I want to achieve by the end of this year. But usually when it comes to goals, then it involves "getting good grades for my current semester", how boring. I need to work on a list a.s.a.p.

Everything is just a clutter in my head right now. 50 shades of cloudiness (Yes, I've been reading 50 Shades of Grey)

I must say I was quite disappointed that my WMHD article didn't appear in the R.AGE section in the Star although they e-mailed and said they would publish my piece. But I'll try again one day.

2013 has been kind to me so far. Turning 21 and getting more exposure, meeting new people and hopefully growing each day have been more than just a blessing. 3 more months til it ends so lets try to accomplish more things!

Overall, I am thankful.

The Now And The Then

Wow, it's been ages since I posted anything :B

I've started Semester 2 doing Psychology. Still learning MORE theories and one of my worse subjects, Statistics. Seriously, I thought that wasn't what I signed up for?

Truth be told, nothing really interesting that I can write about

I came across this quote,  "Do one thing everyday that scares you" and I find it pretty meaningful. It's not really easy to keep up with but at least I started somewhere. Since last semester, I found myself being pretty shy, unlike my usual self. I would stutter and have really really low level of confidence during presentations. I also planned on joining a few events but in the end chickened out. But it's all changing now! I made more friends. Even if those who I don't talk to, I at least smile at them. I tend to want to volunteer to speak during presentations. I joined World Mental Health Day but hasn't started on anything. Things are really starting to shape into what I hope university life would be like. I'd hate to leave university not doing anything. So that was overcoming my fear for me, well sort of.

And I donated a bag of blood! There's another blood donation campaign in April. How many months after I last donated my blood can I do it again? Also, I've been thinking of signing up as an organ donor once I officially turn 21. But I'd probably have to let my parents know first.

I also learned to cook better. At least to me it seems better, haha. I just recently learned to cook chicken rice and mee hun kueh because I felt like eating them and I can't find them at my area here. Never in my life did I think cooking can be this fun :D Seriously, TRY IT.

Studies been okay. Assignments piling up but they're manageable I suppose. Hopefully I'll score better in Semester 2 compared to Semester 1. The aim for this sem: 3.25

Fighting!

I've also developed a HUGE crush on Nichkhun from 2PM <3

I came across this song while watching Vampire Diaries. It's so romantic :) I want to dance to this with my future husband. WHERE IS MY BOYFIE/ HUSBAND? I demand you make yourself visible NAAWWWW

I'm also going to watch U-Kiss perform LIVE next week! Kevin and Eli YAAAAAAAAAAA

School...again.

Let me just point out that doing assignments is a pain in the ass.

It's not even funny what we have to do.

Imagine doing my thesis in third year

o.O

Okay, breathe.

People survived it. 

I can too...

right?

O.O

Anyhow, university life hasn't been really exciting for me.

Maybe I'm not being initiative enough,
not participating in more activities

But in my defence, assignments take up a lot of time

And then sleeping gets in the way.

Sleeping always fights for my time 

Awww..

I really don't wanna graduate 3 years from now and when people ask me,
 "So what have you learn in University? Did you get to meet many new exciting people?"

And my answer will probably be,
"Errr....." *runs away*

I will try my best to participate more and meet more new people

Not that I don't like the company of my new friends

But it just doesn't feel right

Like there's still a missing piece in the puzzle

I haven't found that someone whom I can really be myself with

Especially a Malaysian who can understand my Malaysian lingo

Sometimes having to speak only in English without rojak-fying your words is tough

Who knew?

It's been a month.

I want to meet new people.

Mood switch to being a psychologist : I WILL meet new people.

Oh I just learned about Freud today

Just an introductory to personality

Fell asleep halfway through class

Seriously, 8 am classes are too early lah. Why can't they change to 11 am instead?

T.T

Anyway, Freud..lecturer said Freud's theory mostly based on sex

How having the desire to have sex is considered a "sin"

How enjoying sex is disgusting
What's wrong with you, Freud?
But to his defence, he was brought up during the Victorian era

Lecturer also said if Freud were brought back to life to watch "Sex & the City", he'd probably get multiple heart attacks

LMAO